So I feel super out of it.
Getting back from one of the coolest overseas trips and having to get back to uni is one tough bitch.
I actually had this post planned out in my head but I’m so lost right now that I’ve forgotten what I was going to write, which makes me sad.
I remember there being something about the fact that I have little to no motivation to do anything now, and how it reminds me of when I came back from Ukraine/Malaysia. That sucked. That sucked big fat balls. Now I feel the same, except way more tired, which is weird, I don’t normally get so jetlagged when coming back from Malaysia. Anyway. I don’t know what I’m doing. I feel kind of sad- I guess it’s what happens when someone who hates being herself is suddenly solo after two weeks of being amongst a throng of crazy friends. It feels so weird.
I don’t know what I’m going to do this semester. No AIESEC work, only uni work and parttime work twice a week. I might start trying harder in my law papers- but totally lack motivation to do so. I realised this earlier this morning while sitting in Contract and not remembering anything from last semester. I’m really scared about what that might mean. I feel oddly emotional right now. Like I was sitting in Contracts thinking about how I wanted to cry, though I can’t remember why. I feel like nothing has come back to normalcy depsite the two days I gave myself to readjust.
The trip was super duper awesome. Let’s talk about that for a moment. My favourite destination was Langkawi. So much relaxing- so much sleeping- oh so good. The people I went with made it all the better. The trip would have been nothing without them. There was a point in the year where I was regretting buying the tickets because it was costing so much. Looking back I have no idea what I was complaining about. That trip was super and I’ll remember it for the rest of my life. It was worth every cent.
I totally want some noodles.