Second Draw Down

ARGH! I’m so bored. There was something else I was going to say because I mean, “I’m bored” is just so generic.

Things I did today: Wash, dry and re-bed the sheets, hand wash my scarfs, write out characters for Chinese, listen to a CD I haven’t listened to in years, play around with my make-up, play around with the straightener, take off my make-up, realise that buying that red lip-stick was a bad choice of colour, tidy the house, do my hair… that was in no particular order.

I should be doing my work for my exams but frankly I have just under TWO WEEKS to do it… That’s a LOT of time… which kinda means that I SHOULD be really prepared for it but just because you have so much time to do something doesn’t mean that you’ll do it right –> Asian studies essay.

I think my parents are annoyed by me.

I had a really interesting dream in which I wore my old Sommerville uniform… weird? Yes. I think I need a hair cut. Oh, another thing I have to add to that list of stuff I did: transfer money to Becca’s acc for SnOw TrIp! Yeah I’m not excited about that right now. It seems so far away.

I think that I’m a very instant-gratification-orientated person… well maybe just gratification-orientated person. I was watching this thing last night on happiness and people who are happy are working and involved with stuff, among other things. This is probably why I wasn’t happy today, because I wasn’t doing anything in particular. Hahahahaha… If only Lutonia read my blog.

Nessa just tweeted me that she will read this when she gets home but that won’t be until 4.30 because of the bloody traffic. I need Nessa’s phone number or I’m going to need to call her one day and I’ll call her old one and have weird people answering it. “Great, you’ve made me feel awkward.”

Going back to the gratification thing- this is probably why I’m overweight. Let me share with you, my one and only reader, my BMI. I am 156 cm and weigh 63.5kg (I checked this just now), this makes my BMI 26.1, which means I’m overweight. When I’m bored I eat… thankfully, there’s very small variety of things to snack on at home. Eating is just so good. Damn ME! I started losing weight at the beginning of the year when I went for runs or walks in the morning but then I went on camp with Brenda and Tom and went to the Mount with Lud and then I ate too much Kiwi Dip and I gained the weight back… 3 weeks of hard work, GONE in less than 2.

I’m feeling really weird right now. Spending time at home by myself isn’t too good for me. Someone remind me not to become a housewife, please.

Let me share another thing (Oh, when I’m bored, I like to talk about myself): I don’t want to get married… I don’t want kids and I don’t want to get married. Personally, I think that the love two people experience does not come from the NEED for love but that “love” is in fact a prevention/cure for lonliness which no one can live with. If lonliness lives with you, you are sure to die… soon. Omg… I was just about to write something REALLY inappropriate about being lonely and possible suicide. Not going to write it because THAT IS JUST TOO SAD. So the primary factor in life is lonliness and our brains create “love” to cure this… or out of fear of experiencing too much lonliness our brains create “love”. Ok. Enough of that. I’m feeling kind of lonely–> spending the day at home. Don’t come near me or I might “fall in love with you”.

I bet your thinking: but Novia, if you don’t get married you WILL be lonely. HA! No I won’t be, being married and being lonely are not each other’s complement in fact one can be married AND lonely and be unmarried AND unlonely… this shows that they are NOT complementary factors…  Wahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha ahahahaha ahahahaha

Ok, so what have we learnt today? Novia is 1. fat 2. lonely 3. crazy. I’m planning on fixing all of these faults in the holidays… after French and Chinese… IN 11 DAYS XD