Second Draw Down

Message for Nessa: Hey you left your jumper and t-shirt here, don’t worry I’ll try to remember to bring it to school tomorrow.

 I want to go to weight training but don’t at the same time. I can’t even remember the last time I did any exercise which makes me feel really really really unfit and I can feel my body wouldn’t really appreciate me abusing it by making it do bicep curls. I want Becca to come, but I don’t think she will because of two reasons: 1.She was given one and a half weeks to do an essay that’s due in tomorrow  2.She still hasn’t started… if she doesn’t finish by tonight she won’t come to weight training so yeah. The main reason I want to go to weight training tomorrow is because I feel GROSS that I haven’t done anything.

I’m not excited. In fact I’m kinda not looking forward to it JUST because I’m going to miss everyone. I think for like the second time in my life I felt like I was actually missing someone… Let me explain this properly: Yesterday and today I was feeling sad that I wouldn’t be seeing my family for longest time EVER. I figured that because I was “missing” them yesterday when I was still in NZ I wouldn’t when I was in France, which is good because then I won’t be too sad. Another reason I’m not excited is because I have weight training which another thing that I have to do. You may ask “Well why don’t you just not go?” Right now that isn’t an option. I’m craving it at the moment even if my body isn’t. I also have to pack/check that my stuff. GAR. I need a shower.